Write Every Day!

 Wow... it’s been forever again since I’ve written anything in here.  Freewriting, making sure you are keeping the flow going no matter what. Perhaps I’ll start the dr. horrible... or dr. something writing exercises again. this may come out more like a journal entry, but i suppose I’ll do that as well.  GUESS WHAT...???  I HAVE BEEN WRITING!   Since writing in here last, I’ve met up with some Star Trek friends who were really into cosplay.  that lead to meeting others who were in the entertainment industry and that led to doing a Cosplay Cabaret.  So, three years later, I’ve been doing shows where I’m writing my own lyrics to parody songs.  Like a MF dream come true.  I can’t believe it’s taken me this long but at least I arrived here. I’d like to strengthen this muscle again as I feel like my writing prowess was much better in high school, but then so many things were skewed then. It’s time to acknowledge all the things I’ve accomplished as ...

It's been SO long since i've wanted to write. well, when i've been at the computer at least. i get the urge, but then get lazy. even though i keep a notepad with me at all times it takes some effort to pull it out of my bag an d stop a moment. to take a breath out of life instead of just trudging through on my way soemewhere else. netflix lit up my nostalgia with Swan Princess. i really do think i'll be getting rid of cable. there are so many movies and tv shows i can watch commercial free, why should i bother with channels i jus t flip through to numb my mind? man, i love As Time Goes By. Nice and easy weekend coming up. Going to see Billy Elliott tomorrow afternoon then figure out how i'm going to make a banner for the marathon runners on sunday. They will be right outside my window ^___^ streamers, shiney ribbons and some other things to welcome them to harlem. i love supporting people that are striving for a goal. the structure gives me peace. i'...

i was in the shower when this idea came to mind. it really wasn't a new idea, but one that i've had for quite a while now. i've had a strong disagreement with the way children, and adults are being diagnosed with behavioral problems in the last 10 or so years. i guess it all started with the popularity of ADHD in the news and teachers that felt they had the right to diagnose children themselves. It started there and went onto other ailments that we see as "problems." My feeling is that maybe these instances could be human evolution. The problem is that our society, in it's need for permanence would never consider the possibility. For starters, i'm not trying to make any medical statements, these are all pure observations of those around me and a few definitions i've looked up. My theories could be naive, and i understand there have been years of study to back up other facts, but as the title says, this is a freewrite and it's my blog. :P Now if we ...

Strange how writing in this blog doesn't give the same sense of "spilling" my guts anymore. The use of MySpace, then Facebook really took the place of writing longer, more meaningful posts here. Perhaps the need for attention was better fulfilled through the other networking sites. Writing... writing has been on my mind, more so than usual, but the want and will has seemed to leave again. But it's like going to the gym. If you don't go at first, you'll just end up paying month to month without using any of the equipment. When you DO go, you can start a schedule, get used to going and really make use of the money you're spending. I suppose i'm fortunate that i can be in a position to have that decision to make. I really shouldn't take advantage and waste money that way. There are several things i want to do for myself this year. They are not really new year's resolutions because i plan on taking action with each: - go to the library more...

so i figured i'd do a freewrite tonight. esquire.com finally acknowledged the contest if is over(from august 1st :P) but i guess that's how writing contests wrk. i really have to start entering more, but i have to figure out how to get more money into writing. it would really help if i had a higher salary... or maybe i have to start giving up some of the things i'm paying for. hm.. time to study my budget again. not really up to writing much. this weekend will be a moving weekend so long as the hurricane (bill) doesn't get in the way. we'll see. good nigh all.

i love these little impromptu freewrites. today was a good day. not too much coming from the manager - i had a chance to step off the desk and wrok a litle on my own projects. most of you problably don't even know what i do. i'd say i'm a technician, but that's too plain. not really just a technician, but.. cbecause i also do customer srevice. my title is service desk manager, i handl eall the forward facing issues. my fingers are just not typing waht's in my head. hahahaha think of it this way. you're working on your computer, typing away when the A key stops working. what do you do? if you were working in an office, you'd most likely contact your local Help Desk. But do you remember the number? Of course not, you haven't had to contact them since the previous month when your password didn't work. there was no reason to keep that number, you could manage on your own. so, with thebroken A key, you look through your phone books to see if the...

Went to the Upper East Side today. Guess it was a routine visit, going to a book stores tribute to Katya, a dear friend and old neighbor who is performing at Carnegie Hall June 12th. I thought since I was there before that I'd be okay. Thanks to a single song, I was left in tears before the event. You see, music has quite a hold on me. It always has. When I was lonely, music lent some companionship. If I was angry, a hard beat and powerful voice helped release the pressure. If I was sad, I would listen to modern day crooners, mostly broadway ballads, to help the tears flow, then I'd feel a hell of a lot better. And best of all, when I was happy, I could sing along with the rest at the top of my lungs, on key or not. Today, a song came across my iPod playlist and made the memories come flooding back. I was an independent woman, first living with a husband, then on her own on the Upper East. I had the East River to calm me, beautiful music from a neighbor I would meet only after ...

why did the mets lose it in the 4th....?? why, why did this possum guy let them tie the game. ah well, we'll see who comes out on top. went to karaoke today , only a few people showedup . guess i'll invite less people next time. more people come when thehy're not invited. ^_^ time to come up with a story. i want to write about my experiences, but there is so much i don' twant to divulge. we'll see what happens when it's all written ougt. think tonight wil be a short one, i'd like to get to bed at a semi-decent hour. should find out when the next fruitsbasked ti somcing out. we'l see. sorry tfor the short one, but there are still a few things to get done. g'night.

didn't get a chance to write last night, so i'm filling in this morning. this time, i'm trying to tpype slower to reduce the amount of typos.... but i guess that's not the purpose of a freewrite. ah well. very proud of my sister! she's compeleted her first "for pay:" musical, Cinderella as the fairy godmother. should wbe awesome. going to see her later today. then there is the point that i can't go to shana's party :( i wanted to go, but the way the driving worked out, i won't be able to make it. we'll see what's to happen. i still haeve her card. dreamt about anthony last night. he was back in the states and i let him get in th in mommy's car and we drove him home. maybe i should shoot him an email as well. i want to start up more stories, hopefully when i get used to typing on a daily basis, i'll be able to write up some dreams or stories i think about during the day . should be a lot of tfun. today we'll reach ...

have to make sure i keep writing. completely hung up on fruits basket. it's amazing how someone else can know how you feel. or how we actually relate to fictional characters. but i tguess they have to come from somewhere, right? our thoughts, dreams, experiences and feelings all pour into something we careate. of course we'll find some likeness to our own lives, some of us do anything to ifind tha trelationship. i tend to like the stories that have self-sacrificing characters. mai hime, for instance is a story about a girl who ellearns about her super powers . she's fighting (that reminds me, i was never good at summarizing. even when i wsas in 12 seconds grade, someone asked me abuout the story's subject, or the plot orf something i and i couldn't help but go into detail. i was fastcinated that i could remember it all, and then the teacher called on soemeone else..... i'd love to write a book. i want to write stories. i want to amake something so...

i have to start writing again. the words are being lost in my head, or on paper that's not frata transferred to an online outlet. i have to start writing again. i'll naever make it to a book if i don't get to writing. there was a facevbook or myspace application called write or die . different things would happen to the screen if you stopped typing. you could set a sercertain abmmount of time on the clok ck and then start typing away. it was fun ot see what could come out. i'd like to write a storey from all the things i used to dream up when i was younger. i would alwrays reiwrite stories and save them on floppy discs. yes, do you remember what a lfloppy disc was? i had a story similar to beauty and the besast (tv show , not the fairytale). a woman's attacked and a hideous beast saves her. i really should find those old stories. think i'll also come up with scenes every tniight before bedtime. my bcreative mind is starting to go away, as is my abi...

i don't know if i lost the energy, or if i'm overtaxing myself, but i just don't find the need to blog anymore. perhaps it's the invention of sites like myspace an d facebook that give fgriends an option to update at a moment's notice. want to do soo much, but nothing today. have to clean the house, eat, visit the mta transict museum, eat, crochet, eat, do laundry... auh... laundyry >_ this week i completely overtaxed myself to reach a cgoal that wea s was too last minute and probably something that will raise th e bar for my expectations. great. ah wel. think it's time to go back to sleep anad enjoyo my bed ^_____^

I have a need for green things in my apartment. So, i find seeds around the kitchen and put them in dirt! Here are two pics of days 2 and 4 of my garlic plant experiment. i took a little clove of garlic and well.. look! 2 Days: 4 Days: that's made me a little happier about my apartment. on other news... i may have to move. student loans started a few months ago and it's killing my budget. I've gotten rid of just about everything else, but it's not enough. so i may end up moving to queens because i value my privacy - aka living in my own apartment. sharing is a good way to keep the costs down, but there are certain things i like to do on my own and a way i like to feel comfortable. i still don't like sharing bathrooms... maybe it's a complex :P plus if i want to bake at 2:30am i'd like the choice. perhaps i'll go to queens. the hardest part is trying to figure out what to do in the meantime. to get back my security, i'll have to stay until m...

yeah, it's been a while. i've been living my life. all the ups and downs *hahahaha have to gthing of where i left my aunti e maime dvd. i'd like to watch it again. just watheched a great movie called "Spider". Gonna read the book . ralph fiennes plays a psychotic that goes through the memories is of his childhood. i love that stars are getting back into really acting . this movie was an independent filem and had several famous names. the art is coming out again - hopefully it woasn't driven by money. walked the central park this afternoon. the day slipps away when you wake up so late in the day, but i got to be d late. same thing will happen tonight i'm sure. but at lseast this tim e i took a nap beigning to feel restless again. i'm sure it's a little bit due to the weather, no that's not right. it's probably because i'm thinking too much about being alone. although i'm man introvert, enjoying life on you rown is on...

yeah, probably a freewrite because i'm not going to correct much. Cloverfield party at my mom's house... watching special features and easter eggs. Learning Flyff from an interested brother (Fly for fun). Waking up at 8:21am to play Super Mario RPG after going to bed at 3:30am. getting my OS X Leopard and installing it so my mac is back to life (thank you my dear!!). that's about it. weekend is going good so far. going to get a lot of sleep in tomorrow! good night! ~marj :D

(freewrites are posts that are unedited so i can get my thoughts on the screen. some of the posts may be unreadable, but it can also be fun to try to decipher.) figures that now that i've created a new blog i can't think of anything wo to write. i think i started this post at least four times already and now i'm listening to teh 25th annual putnam county spelling bee. i love this dmusical. new years is was awesome. went to a nice place with a seven course meal and stuffed my face. hahahahhaa see ieven this seems very forced. maybe i'll come up with something to be inspired about later. basically, this blog is gong going to recflect my transition into becoming an indivitdual again. i'm almos t embarassed to wri... post this blog. but, i need a beginning. ^_^ HAPPY NEW YEAR Everyone! ~Marj :D